You know you suck and stuck when you could actually do nothing to change the situation, instead you could only blame yourself for what had happened.
I don't know for how many times the same song had been repeatedly played and for how many times I got my eyes teary.
And I know now how suck it is to not be able to write down what you could actually feel at the moment.
If you know this would happen, perhaps you could set aside your ego, preserve what you would have preserved and be a little bit lenient and tolerant to other people especially your loved one.
But, it happened anyway (though I have always prayed it was one of the worst nightmare I have ever faced)
I hope this would heal sooner..